I like it. I like it a lot.

I like being engaged. It is a lot of fun. People have been asking me if it feels any different than dating. Nothing has changed much. I feel a deeper level of commitment than just dating. It also opens up doors that we can talk about. Things we need to talk about. Also, it has enhanced how much I love him. I've dated others and talked a little about marriage. I've thought about what life would be like to be with them, but things happen and the relationship ended. Trevor and I had talked about marriage before, but I was still holding off, because you never know. People I thought I was going to marry just didn't work out. But now that we're engaged and I know it is going to work out, it's so much easier to just let things flow. I like talking to him about everything. My favorite is just talking about our days at the end of the day. I love being around him. I have never been with anybody that I've liked to be around so much. I usually need a break from them, but Trevor is just so wonderful to be around. I love him. I can't wait to be his wife.

I don't think marriage will be much different. I just can't wait to not have to say good-bye every night. I can't wait to wake up next to him every morning. And, obviously, there won't be any more of those certain temptations to fight. That's hard right now. Except it's not so hard when we're really careful not to be in a situation where it's tempting. I can't wait to make his dinners and pack his lunches and kiss him good-bye for work and just be his wife. I love him so much. He's just perfect for me. *sigh* I'm smitten.