Winding Down

So it's been ongoing stress basically since September when I returned from my brother's wedding. It's been one of those 'when it rains, it pours' kind of times. Trevor has seen me through all of it, one thing after another. He's seen a side of me that I don't think any other guy has seen, or would have stuck through. But Trevor did. He's still here, and get this, still in love with me! That only makes me love and trust him more to know he sticks through the hard times. It all could've been worse, but even so, it's still been pretty tough. Things are really tight this month with my car breaking down at all. The repair bill took all of my Christmas money, and most of my moving money. Trevor had been out of a job for a while, and has little money for the holidays. We decided to just stay put for Christmas. It's sad, but we don't have much. And certainly wouldn't have enough for plane tickets. Part of me wanted him to just go on and have a wonderful holiday, but I knew if I suggested it, he'd boycott it immediately. He won't even go to the store without me. I don't think he'd leave me for the holidays. So we discussed our options and resigned to having a meager holiday with just the two of us-something that brought me to tears every time I thought about it. I really wanted to meet his family. He talks about them with such a love. Also, we really have nothing here. Neither of us has any family, and Christmas isn't anything without family.

Well, his entire family has sacrificed getting presents just so we could be there. I was so deeply touched after getting off the phone with his mother yesterday at how much they want their brother to be there. I have the feeling that this is one awesome family. I found some pretty inexpensive tickets today that we can afford, with the help of his family. I'm so excited that we can make it there after all. Although it will still be hard, because I've never been away from my own family at the holidays, I'm excited to be a part of his.

On top of that, a lot of the stress has dispersed. The car is working fine, and that can finally be off my mind. All the troubles I've been having with "Sally" are over (for me at least). Sure, I came out with no friends, but I'd rather be alone than stuck in endless contention. I'm not alone anyway. I've got my wonderful boyfriend. Also, things are better with him than we've ever been. We love each other very much. We knew there was something special from the get go, but we had some communication issues like crazy. It was very frustrating for a while. But we've been reading "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" by John Grey. It has changed everything. I understand him, and he understands me. We've learned how to grow and support and nourish each other. It feels great. I love him so very much. I can't believe it. I highly recommend this book to all couples. Both married or dating. It will improve everthing. I promise.